Friday, February 29, 2008
Oh, Here We Go Again...
Last night, one hour before I had planned to leave to go to the nursing home for the"February" birthday party, I walked into the kitchen and caught bright sunlight in my eye. INSTANTLY, I was hit with a throbbing, pulsating, gyrating, rap-singing, head-banging migraine. This one was BAD.
But, it did go away, after I slept for two hours and fifteen minutes. I woke up in a dark room and did not know where I was, who I was, or whether or not it was 8:45 in the morning or evening. Twenty four hours later, I can still feel it, but it is somewhat bearable, with medication.
THGGM picked up my dad and they had a wonderful time at the party. THGGM and my dad both were happy to see my mom in such a good mood. She does like parties.
Famke seems to have come down with something. Most likely what Jonge has (boogers in the ear - see below). But, it is even harder to watch in one so young. Daughter had an appointment today, so Jonge and Famke stayed with me for the two hours she was gone. I am happy to report that we ALL slept the entire two hours. I cannot think of a better way to spend an afternoon than napping with grandchildren. Well, other than being awake with grandchildren.
Now on to more random topics,
What is it with Sally Fields not being able to remember to take her osteoporosis meds each week? Truly, if she cannot remember something that simple, she really should be taking Aricept as well. Some commercials bug me. That is one of them.
How much money do they pay actors to portray someone who is suffering from something shameful or embarrassing? NO ONE should ever dance around on a stage singing about upset stomachs and diarrhea. I still remember when my mom would not let me sing the Blatz beer song that always played during the evening news (kegs, cans and bottles - all taste the same!) what must mothers be saying now? And then there is that sleep aid that is always being advertised. The one with a possible side effect of 'bad taste'. Goodness, do I know A LOT of people taking that one! Bad taste is certainly going around.
It appears as if the worst of the drama called 'getting my mom covered by medicaid' is over. She will be covered. It seems that there is another application that needs filling out and sending in, but she does qualify. Hopefully this happy news will stave off any further meltdowns on my part. Of course, that does remain to be seen. Something about medicaid not covering prescription drugs. I must check that out.
Yesterday, while Famke slept, I finished reading Madeleine L'Engle's "Love Letters". I cannot say that I loved it, but I did enjoy it very much. Next I've picked up L'Engle's "The Irrational Season". I've read it before, and know that I do love this one. For some reason, I'm enjoying nonfiction more than fiction at the moment.
I haven't seen the 'blue' mouse again. It is really a dark grey, but that isn't a color that Jonge knows yet. I did leave out an offering for the hideous creature. A trick I learned. I left it a tortilla chip. It was gone this morning, and now all I have to do is listen to where the crunching is coming from. Traps will be set. I assure you (me).
Lately I've been perusing sites containing the letters of Elizabeth Barrett Browning and Robert Browning. The book I recently purchased at an antique store "The World's Great Letters" contained the letter Elizabeth wrote to her sisters after her secret wedding to Browning. Of course, that caused me to want to know more. I also located my copy of "Sonnets from the Portuguese", but for some odd reason, they just aren't hitting the spot for me. I used to LOVE them. Now, I read them and find myself thinking - "Good grief. Just stop that." I tend to be like that with poetry. I either love it and find myself all teary-eyed, or it makes me cringe. Always, though, Dr. Seuss works for me. His is the highest form of poetry. Totally senseless.
I think I did fairly well this month, using up things I have around the house. It will get easier once my little shop of horrors in the basement gets set up. Progress is being made. My cabinets and counter top are in place. Yet, the floor is littered with open boxes of who-knows-what. I have great amounts of who-knows-what. Also, some who-knows-why and even a bit of I-know-not-what-nor-why.
One of my sorting jobs from last weekend was getting all of my linens into the linen closet in the hallway. THGGM brought in a huge box and I set to work washing, folding, and putting away. It felt wonderful! Free-ing, even. I filled it up! Ah, so satisfying. Then, THGGM dropped off two more boxes the same size as the first one. Now...what to do with all of that...
I see a large garage sale in my spring-time future.
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Jonge Saw It Too

Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Was that Tuesday that Just Sped Past?
I really did not like this Tuesday. I suppose that's okay from time to time - to not like a particular day.I tried to "spring up" my dining room.
Much stuff was brought in over the weekend that needed a place to go.
But, it was also a phone call day for me. I hate those.
One was a terrible call from the billing person at the nursing home. It is taking FOREVER to get my mom approved for medicaid. Not for lack of trying on this end, either. For weeks we've been told by the 'powers that be' in this fair state that it would be taken care of 'this week'. Hopefully, the nursing home will know how to speed things up, as we are all a frazzled bunch of nerves over here. I've held up pretty well, up until today. But that call. That one pushed, shoved and kicked me over the edge - pointed, and laughed.
And then, Youngest Son stopped over. As a rule, I do not lose it like that. But, he got to witness it all. I was SO glad he stopped by, as he turned on the TV just as breaking news of a gas explosion in East Town came on. He lives in East Town, only a couple of blocks away. Had he not been right in front of me, I would have had more reason to cry.
Once I was all pulled together, I headed back into the dining room to arrange things in a pleasing and spring-like manner.
Ha.
That didn't last long.
A mouse appeared. This is the first one I have SEEN here. I watched it run right past my amazing device that is supposed to emit a sound that mice cannot stand.
Instead, I was the one emitting a shrill, high pitched sound.
I hate mice. I've never been a fan of gas. And the deplorable way the government treats the elderly is causing me deep grief.
(and now, i will get back to my 'reduce stress-reduce blood sugar' plan. hahahahahahahaha!)
Labels: and she rants...
Monday, February 25, 2008
An Ordinary Monday
I stayed up late last night, reading. I didn't really mean too, but my book became more interesting and I just couldn't put it down.
This means that when THGGM woke me up (he has to wake me up, as i have lost the ability to wake up on my own) I was in some deep stage of sleep that was very hard to shake.
My morning coffee helped with that.
So, I got on with my morning reading, puttering and decluttering.
I like to have certain things in order by the time my dad calls. He calls me before he leaves his house. He has been kind in understanding that I want to have at least a rough idea of what he has planned for the day. This morning we were in the midst of an episode of unexpected freezing rain and I didn't have to do a whole lot of convincing to get him to see the wisdom in staying home. Last February he fell and broke his leg.
By this time I am clothed and in my right mind. Well, as right as my mind gets, anyway.
My breakfast consisted of the leftover egg salad from yesterday's lunch and another mug of coffee. I sped through today's Carol Duvall show, but found nothing worth stopping for.
About this time I remember that if I don't put some makeup on, I get asked if I am not feeling well. I'm not, but that is beside the point. Those lab results I've been waiting for came in, and they were not good. I figured that is why I've been so tired, but, now I have a paper with the proof of that written on it.
Had I know ahead of time about the freezing rain, I would have gone to Daughter's house today. But, since it was too late for that, I was kind enough to open the garage door for her so she didn't have to personally experience any elements between her house and mine.
Now the fun begins!
Jonge was his delightful self today, with the exception of a few tummy aches. In our weekend garage unpacking I had found some toys that had been hidden out there for half a year and some others that had been hidden for nearly ten years. So, he spent the morning playing with some of his mommy's old favorite toys. He is excellent at pretending. He thinks that I am pretty good at it, too.
Famke has recently added 'funny' to her darling list of attributes. She has always been cuddly and sweet, but adding funny to the mix makes her SO entertaining!
Today there were a lot of diaper changes. A lot. If not diapering someone or feeding someone I was holding someone. Many times, two someones. By afternoon the kitty feels neglected and ALSO wants to be held. That used to work, until Famke started giving the kitty big wet kisses which coat her in cat fur. So, no more kitty on the lap with us.
My favorite part of Monday is nap time. Jonge slept for two hours, and Famke and I slept for two hours, but only if I held her. We will need to work on that. Thankfully she is small and totes well, even in her sleep. Unless of course, I reach for a book or try to sneak in some computer time. She will lift her fuzzy little head, open up her eyes that look like brown M&M's and give me the dirtiest look I have ever been given. If she knew how to put her little hand on her hip, she would do that, too.
Everyone was awake by four. That last hour and 15 minutes is my toughest time of the day. Today Jonge woke up ornery. He had a tummy ache and wanted to be held. Famke wanted a bottle. NOW. But, when she noticed that Jonge was crying (when she stopped crying long enough to hear him) all she wanted to do was reach out and touch him. Too cute. Well, at least I thought it was cute.
I did relearn the fact that I cannot carry both of them. Nope. So, some amount of crying just has to happen. Thankfully, Famke doesn't mind the occasional propped bottle, so I could tend to tummy-ache boy. He seemed to feel much better after he ate. So we cuddled and watched a previously recorded episode of "Signing Time". I'm starting over with the earlier ones to refresh our memories. Hopefully Famke will pick this up as quickly as Jonge did. It's just SO helpful.
THGGM and Daughter arrived at the same time today. Jonge is always filled with joy to see Pake, and Famke was thrilled to see her mommy.
I thrilled to the sound of adult voices. And the chance to go potty, ALONE.
By the time six o'clock rolled around, THGGM was nice enough to go pick up supper for us.
I caught a little bit of the news, looked through a book that had been in hiding for the past six months, watched "Antiques Roadshow" and "Jon and Kate Plus Eight". After watching that, the tired I feel always seems to go away.
Next up, I will make tomorrow's coffee, catch a weather report (are we on the cusp of another storm?) and go to bed.
Labels: she lives a simple life full of wonder
Christmas Is Ten Months from Today
Sunday, February 24, 2008
The Weekend
Yes.
You heard me right.
Unpack.
All I can say is, we are getting there.
There are certain things about us that we cannnot understand.
For some of them, we went to years of rather intense counseling.
For others, we sit at opposite ends of the couch, look at each other deeply, and in our most loving way, say "Huh".
THGGM cannot seem to help himself. He buys old rugs and old furniture. He also has cashmere sweaters in every color and hue of the rainbow. He doesn't pay more than a couple of dollars for them.
I will buy anything at all if it is cheap, cute, I could make it into something else, or I know someone who might want it. Not that I ever GIVE it to that person. But, I could.
We did have rather a lovely time shopping from our own garage. It's heated, and cleaner than some stores I've shopped in resently.
I found many things that I haven't seen in well over six months.
Things I didn't even know I'd been missing until I saw them again.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Scary Famke
Labels: she posts a great many pictures of jonge and famke
Friday, February 22, 2008
I Wonder...
THGGM and I hate to grocery shop. He hates it because he spent 24 years working in grocery stores. I'm not sure what my reason is, but I dislike it immensely.
Anyway...
So we buy things in bulk when we finally DO go out. And, generally we replace things before they run out.
This week we ran low on toilet paper. So, today I had to snatch some from the secret 'just in case we run out' stash and put it in the bathroom.
This isn't news, nor is it interesting at all. But,..
As I was vacuuming behind the toilet (it gets dusty back there) the vacuum wand caught the tail of the toilet paper and IMMEDIATELY sucked the rest of the roll into the vacuum.
Now, I just happen to believe that had we extra rolls on hand, this would NEVER have happened.
I nearly cried. I did say, to no one at all, "This kind of thing is ALWAYS happening to me!".
No one heard.
Labels: she lives to prove murphy's law
Random Thoughts for a Friday
What is with 'male enhancement' products being advertised on afternoon HGTV shows? I do not think Jonge and I will be watching ANY live TV. It is so much nicer to skip over all of the advertising.
I realized today just how deeply I suffer from rejection. I put out food for the birds. Did they come? Not for HOURS. In those hours, all I could think was "what's wrong with MY food?". It's not even for the birds, I guess. Hours later, they did come. Swarms of startlings, like, from The Birds. Jonge had a great time watching them.
Today I came across this quote in a book I'd planned to give away. It's from Walker Percy. "Consciously cultivate the ordinary." Good words.
Have you read Walker Percy's book "The Second Coming"? I really liked it. Although another of his books I started and just could not get though. Makes it tough to recommend an author. Elizabeth Goudge is one of my favorite authors, but one of the many books of hers that I have read was really not good. I always fear when recommending authors that someone will pick up one of the lousy ones and wonder what kind of a nut case I am. (i am a nut case attemping to consciously cultivate the ordinary, thank you very much.)
I haven't ordered the curtains for my kitchen yet. Another weird thing about me? I like knowing that I CAN. Once I do it, that little thrill will be gone.
It will be another cheap sewing machine that I get. Or, maybe someone will be upgrading and I can pick up an older model for cheap. I could understand putting money into one if I was going to do 'serious' sewing. What I am planning to do would not be worthy of a grand machine.
How long does it take to get blood test results back? Actually, I think that labs should provide 'do it yourself' on site labs. Who cares more what the results are than the person having the test done?
I've been writing notes all week. I just looked over at them, and they mean nothing to me. For example: Crossword puzzles - where are the cross words? I do not know what I was meaning with that.
One day this week I woke from a sound sleep with an epiphany. It was THE answer. I went back to sleep so happy that now I KNEW THE answer. I even remembered it in the morning. Ha. I'm not telling.
Jonge can guess a tune without hearing the words. He can also guess it from the beat. I'm impressed.
He can also speak in sentences. Yesterday he walked into the room, held up his finger and said, "Oh, no. I have a hangnail. Somebody help me." He also "needs" things. Today he needed peanut M&M's. Oh, and a glass jar full of nuts and bolts. If you could hear him, you would be convinced too that he actually does need them. Today, when I put him down for his nap, I said "I love you, Jonge!". He said, "I love you too, Beppe."
So the birds don't come, my sewing machine isn't 'cool', my blood test results aren't in, but my Jonge loves me, and it is enough.
Labels: she has random thoughts
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Will She Like to Make Things?

I made an embroidery transfer from a page of Jonge's favorite book, "Barn Yard Dance".
Next time I'll use flour sack and only two ply floss, as some of the detail was lost in the thickness of the thread.
Besides that, I do like how it turned out.
I'll be doing this again, for sure.
Labels: she makes stuff
Eight Dollar
Well. On this day Jonge was busy. Busy going to work to 'make money'. Whenever asked how much he had made he would respond by saying "Eight Dollar". 
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Moon Set, Moon Eclipse
My day began with sky watching, ended with sky watching, and sandwiched in between, more sky watching.
Labels: she notes that the heavens declare the glory of God
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
sNOw

Labels: she has an occasional deep thought which throws her off for the rest of the day
What I Am Reading
"Supposing," she said, slowly, "you were sitting in a train standing still in a great railroad station. And supposing the train on the track next to yours began to move. It would seem to you that it was your train that was moving, and in the opposite direction. The only way you could tell about yourself, which way you were going, or even if you were going anywhere at all, would be to find a point of reference, something standing still, perhaps a person on the next platform; and in relation to this person you could judge your own direction and motion. The person standing still on the platform wouldn't be telling you where you were going or what was happening, but without him you wouldn't know. You don't need to yell out the train window and ask directions. All you need to do is see your point of reference."
Labels: she sees much value in reading
Monday, February 18, 2008
I Do Try. Really. I Do.

ly attempts with what I had on hand. I like them, but they do need to have better hair. 
Labels: she makes stuff
And Another Thing...

Labels: she tries but things rarely go as planned
Sunday, February 17, 2008
I Heave a Deep Sigh....
And go back to a month of no thrift/antique shopping.

Labels: she finds treasure everywhere
Saturday, February 16, 2008
My Free Day
THGGM went on a hunt today for the perfect chair for our new secretary. No. We are not sick of looking at it, yet. It was a long time coming.

Labels: she finds treasure everywhere
A Woman of Letters

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Friday, February 15, 2008
Day 15 of No Thrift Shopping
Today I used up more of the thrift stuff I have on hand. I found a baggy filled with clip clothes pins and magnets for which I'd paid 25 cents. While sitting at my computer I noticed some double sided tape in a drawer. I also had recently purchased some ribbon on sale at Michael's Craft Store. Voila! I covered half of the clothes pin with the double sided tape and added the ribbon. The magnet is glued to the back.
Labels: she makes stuff
Random Thoughts for Friday
And for my 1st random thought of the day, why are there mice? What was Noah's wife thinking when she let two of those hiddeous creatures onto the ark? I found mouse poop on my kitchen counter this morning. I figured as much. These mice have been bonded to me. The old house came down, and it took them nary a week to find me over here, a mere half mile away. I swear, I heard one kneel down and say in a high pitched squeaky voice 'whither thou goest, I will go, and where thou lodgest, I will lodge..."
My 2nd random thought, what do people do who don't make stuff? I once tried to quit making stuff, but I just cannot do it. There is stuff to be made, I must make stuff. Sadly, once I make the stuff, I do not know what to do with it. And watching Carol Duvall in the morning isn't helping me. Do you know how much stuff there actually IS to be made? It's staggering, and so am I.
Number 3 random thought: I think I need a new sewing machine. Does anyone know if the cheap ones are any good? I am not a good sewing person (sewer? i am NOT a sewer!) but hand sewing is hard on my already numb hands and painful wrists. I've had very good luck with my old Kenmore, but parts are breaking off of it and it is unsightly.
My 4th random thought, What would cause someone to do a commercial about genital herpes? There is SUCH a bigger lesson there than the medication being marketed. Somethings do not need to be made public.
Number five in the random thought department, my daughter-in-law once made a presentation from the very stage where lethal shots were fired yesterday at NIU. My thoughts on this would not be random were I able to wrap my mind around it.
And for number 6. If you do not have a collection, start collecting picnic baskets. They are SO convenient to have around, and they generally stack nicely. I orginally planned to buy vintage picnic baskets to fill with vintage picnicky things to give Daughter and Daughter-in-law for shower gifts. Instead, while waiting for the showers to happen, I loaded them up with my own mix of stuff and haven't stopped yet.
Number 7? Remember that box of "52 Silly Things to Do When You Are Blue"? Huh. It has only caused me to become more blue. "Get in a car and drive for 45 minutes?" Let's see...I don't have a car, I don't have money for gas, the weather is nasty... "Make rags out of your old underwear and socks"? No. I do not want to play those cards anymore.
My 8th random thought is this: Scrabulous is fabulous! I love that game. My wins fall far behind my loses, but, it's fun. And, nobody gets to see me storm off in a rage when I lose. And, on Scrabulous, things are words that we all know are not really words that would work while playing Scrabble. We KNOW that, but we use them anyway. A word like "QI". Lots of potential points there.
For random thought number 9, how do people read things only once? My favorite books I read over and over again. Tonight I will read C.S. Lewis' "The Inner Ring". It is one of those things that made such a huge impression on me that I cannot seem to get enough of it. This is because at every point in my life, it has said the same thing, but to different circumstances. My stack of 'new' books to read is growing taller, but I simply MUST read things again to push them deeper inside. As soon as I can locate what happened to my book of short stories by Theodore Dreiser I will read "The Old Neighborhood" again. If I were ever to hold anyone hostage (or homeschool them, which daughter believes to be one and the same) "The Old Neighborhood" would be required reading. And, Sheldon van Auken's "A Severe Mercy".
Oh, and 10? Random thought number 10 is the fact that in three and one half months I will turn 50. It did not bother me to turn 21. I was a married lady already. By 25 I had three children and hardly had a moment to notice. At thirty life was humming along at a crazy pitch. I turned 40 just before we moved the last time. I was tired, but could still laugh about it. But 50. I'm having more trouble with that one.
I think Joyce Carol Oates says it best: "When you're fifty you start thinking about things you haven't thought about before. I used to think getting old was about vanity, but actually it's about losing people you love. Getting wrinkles is trivial."
Labels: she has random thoughts
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Good Things

Labels: she tries she really really tries to see the light at the end of the tunnel
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I Can't Get Over This


Labels: she wallows in the shallows
Monday, February 11, 2008
Sunshine, Lollipops, and



Labels: famke = girl - jonge = boy
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Famke Is Six Months Old
Labels: famke = girl - jonge = boy
Merry Christmas to Me


Lots of little drawers to fill with interesting things. Jonge found the little drawers to be thrilling!

If the sun ever shines again, I will throw open curtains and doors in an attempt to get a good picture of it.
Labels: Corners of my home
Friday, February 08, 2008
Faith. Believing That the Sun Is Still There...

Labels: my corner of the world
Day Seven of No Thrift Shopping

Labels: things to make
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Why I Never Accomplish Anything



Labels: she trips and falls down memory lane
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Lest I Forget...
Daughter bought a 'limited edition' diet pop (soda, if you do not hail from Michigan).
She tasted it, and knew that it reminded her of something, so, she asked if I would try some and see if I could figure out what it tasted like.
The next time I was at her house, I tried it.
The drink is diet Dr. Pepper Chocolate Cherry.
Have you ever tried it?
It taste just like a cherry Tootsie Pop sucker.
Really. If you are a fan of the Tootsie Pop, run out to see if your neighborhood grocer carries this. If it doesn't ask them to order a case for you.
Then invite me over, and I will drink it. With you, or without you, it matters not to me.
While Daughter is at work and her kids are napping, I throw back a few of these and dream of happy times of yore. The best part? No sticky stick.
And now, I must agree, Dr. Pepper is TRULY the joy of THIS girl. Although I cannot vouche for every boy and girl.
(today i shared a bit of it with jonge, who is sick. he wanted a bottle, but is a big boy now and mommy says 'no bottles' so beppe must also. mommy did NOT say 'no diet dr. pepper chocolate cherry' although i believe she would have if she knew i were going to give the dear boy some. be forwarned. it turns teeth, lips, cheeks, sippy cups and baby sisters red. it also contains caffeine. jonge felt much better after he had a few sips. danced. sang. giggled with fevered glee. all he needed was a visit from the dr.)
It's the most original soft drink ever in the whooooole wiiiiide world.
Really, truly.
Labels: she goes on and on about nothing
Today


Famke, after having one very fussy hour, was an adorable bundle of giggles and grins.
Labels: famke = girl - jonge = boy, my corner of the world
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
Dumber than a Box of Rocks?

Labels: things to make
Things I Learned Today
I cannot answer the remote.
I cannot do more than one thing at a time, and can barely do one thing.
I am capable of having extremely odd dreams, which are drawn extensively and exclusively from things going on in my little corner of the world.
I am not capable of picking up a book without thumbing through it. Pick up a dozen books? Must thumb through all of them.
A cat laying on my bed means that I must lay by him and carry on a conversation.
Nursing homes won't let you visit during a flu epidemic.
Even my best laid plans get thwarted.
Playing board games on line with my adult children is more fun than it was playing board games with them when they were young. No arguements about who cleans up. No throwing things. No blood drawn.
That reminds me, I haven't had my November blood drawn yet.
I am not always hot. Today, I am very cold.
I never cry. Except today.
Because of this:
This is what youth must figure out:
Girls, love, and living.
The having, the not having,
The spending and giving,
And the meloncholy time of not knowing.
This is what age must learn about:
The ABC of dying.
The going, yet not going,
The loving and leaving,
And the unbearable knowing and knowing.
- E.B. White
(Did you know that E.B. White had Alzheimer's? He did.)
Labels: my corner of the world
Monday, February 04, 2008
Room to Play in the Play Room
Today Jonge had a chance to show me his great new play room! His mommy and daddy have been very busy fixing up a room on the main floor for him to play and be creative.
Labels: famke = girl - jonge = boy, Posts Actually Meant for Baby Boy's Blog
Saturday, February 02, 2008
Today at Beppe's House
Friday, February 01, 2008
My First Day of Not Thrifting
While looking out of the window, drinking coffee, and watching it snow (and snow and snow and snow) I got my drawing pad out and did a self portrait. I remembered that I had a transfer pen, so I found that (i FOUND it, i'd never used it, bought it years ago, and i FOUND it, right where i had put it). I went over my drawing with the transfer pen and ironed it on to a thrifted khaki-colored napkin.


The transfer pen worked wonderfully. The fabric? That seemed to have too much 'give'. I tried to give myself my usual look of glasses down on my nose, but I couldn't get that right. So, I had to pull out a bunch of stitches which really stretched the fabric around my face. I'll know better next time.
Anyway, I got my hair exactly right. Brown, grey and thinning, with frizz.
Sadly, I actually have this outfit. I wear it exactly twice each year. Memorial Day and Independence Day.
I might just have to do a series of faceless dolls. I can get the body to look right, but not the face. Faces are hard to do.
Not bad for a first try, I say.
Labels: things to make
View from My Kitchen Window
















